Desire is meant to be a roadmap Home. John said this last night at housechurch when we were talking about our individual passions.

I think this echoes CS Lewis' last book in the Chronicles of Narnia: the stuff of this earth and in this life we purely desire are shadows of the life to come. Desire is not meant for us to ache or run from or push down but for us to learn about who we really are and where we are going. There's a David Wilcox song about longing. I can't remember the exact words but it's something like.... "when I feel lonely that means some room (in my heart, soul, mind) is empty. That empty room is there by design. When I feel hollow, that's just the proof that there's more for me to follow - that's what the lonely is for."

I like the concept to use desire to understand our journey. In otherwords, what I desire (or think I want) is not totally the point. The desire becomes my teacher and the journey leads me to more fufillment than just "getting what I want."

Mike Bickel from the Kansas City International House of Prayer has said over and over that we get exhausted by this life and even ministry unless we spend time in adoration, gazing on the One we love. Since we don't fully know Him yet or comprehend the fullness of His magnificence, our adoration or time spent consciously expressing love to Him will fall short, but it is still needed by us and wanted by Him. I've been thinking about our desire for Him a lot lately because we have spent a good portion of time in our House of Prayer Monday nights contemplating His beauty and adoring Him. Telling Him that I love Him and long for Him somehow makes it more real, and expands that place in my heart. The longing has grown; the love has grown. The understanding of His beauty has grown. This desire for Him is my roadmap Home.